Lyrics

Have yall heard the song Hosanna by Hilsong? If you havent, I encourage you to download it. It is amazing! We sing it at church a lot and I am always amazed at how emotional I get when I sing these lyrics. I have two favorite parts in the song. My first favorite is, "I see a generation, rising up to take their place, with selfless faith." I want to be a part of that generation. But how do I become a part of that generation? The other lyrics in the song that I love are "Break my heart for what Breaks yours. Everything I am for your kingdom's cause." Wow. I want that. I want my heart to break for what His breaks for. I guess in order to be part of the generation rising up to take our place, our hearts must break for what breaks his. Im frustrated about all of this. Being in Dallas, I feel like its all about us. Even those of us that go to church, I feel like we have made it acceptable to do things for ourselves and make sure we are comfy (house, nice apartment, nice car, crappy car, makeup, good food, etc) but if we really believe that we have been given the gift of eternal life, why arent we out there telling everyone about it?!?!?! I am really struggling with this right now because we are closing on our house tomorrow. Everyone keeps asking me if I am excited and I am, but at the same time, I am wondering how long this will tie us down. I dont want to be here forever. I want to "declare His glory among the nations" (Ps 96:3) I dont want John to work at a desk job for the rest of his life. I want us to go out and tell people in remote jungles about God! I want to lay down my life in order to serve others. I know that I can do things while I am here to serve others, but at the end of the day, I will be holding on to that comfy house and nice car. I will be holding on to my comfortable life. I want to give it all away for Him. I just feel this desire to do these things, and I know they are coming from Him, so I want to get off my butt and do it, but how do I do it, when we are buying a house tomorrow?!!...bittersweet. Thanks for reading my stream of consciousness!