Im back!

I don't like being a healthy blog. Its not fun if you aren't being healthy! So I'm back to talk about normal things. Might talk about being healthy every now and then, but not all the time!

I just read a quote earlier today on someones facebook and I got super convicted, "If you can't give away your possessions, they possess you". ~Shane Claiborne. I got pretty convicted by this quote, and I assume that most of you will also be convicted by it. I say that I will give it all up and leave and go where God wants me to go, BUT when it comes time to fish or cut bait, I start making excuses.

Let me elaborate. John went to lunch with a pastor at our church and the pastor called him out. He told John that if we were feeling called to Guatemala, than there were no more questions. We needed to take the next steps to get there. So, now we are thinking about seminary and how quickly we can get to Guatemala. Here were my thoughts that played continually as we had this vital conversation: "I dont want to leave my family. I dont want to sell the house. We just moved in and got settled. Im happy here. We have an easy life. I dont want to move somewere that is not safe. I dont even speak Spanish. I want Mark and Erin to come with us. Crap, Mark and Erin say they dont feel called to Guatemala. It will be lonely. I wont have a shopping mall within a one hour drive. What about Grandma? What about my mom and dad? When will I have a baby? Will our baby be safe, if we have one? How long will we be there? The furniture down there is so ugly. Will our house be ugly? How long do we have to stay there?...." and so on and so on. What the heck is wrong with me?

Scripture says that we have to be willing to leave our family for God (in a way) "If anyone comes to me and does not hate his father and mother, his wife and children, his brothers and sisters—yes, even his own life—he cannot be my disciple." Luke 14:26 I dont hate my family, but I think the idea here is that we hate them compared to the love we have for God. If I choose to stay in Dallas because of my family, that is not putting God first in my life. "And everyone who has left houses or brothers or sisters or father or mother or children or fields for my sake will receive a hundred times as much and will inherit eternal life." Mathhew 19:29 Ok, so thats covered. I cant stay here because of my family. (Easier said than done of course)

Jesus answered, "If you want to be perfect, go, sell your possessions and give to the poor, and you will have treasure in heaven. Then come, follow me." Matthew 19:21 I know Ill never be perfect, but I want to do what Im supposed to do, and that means Im supposed to follow God's will and from what Im hearing from Him, it is to leave. BUT ITS SO HARD TO DO WHEN THAT MEANS LEAVING EVERYTHING BEHIND (or everyone)!!!!!!!!

I can go on and on about this, but Im going to stop. I think if I knew someone was coming with us (friends or something) I could do it, but the idea of being out there all by ourselves (with Julio and Lucky of course) makes me sad.

Mark and Erin, Please come with us!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!