Life Without Christ

Ok so this is UBER random, so bare with me...

I had a HORRIBLE nightmare last night. In my dream this creepy old man (who was recently a character on the show Criminal Minds...which I will not be watching anymore) was a serial killer and was trying to kill me. Everywhere I went, he would be standing there waiting for me. I stabbed him to try to kill him. He wouldn't die. I would run and get to the next place and he would be there, waiting for me. In the end of my dream, I blew his head off with a gun (violent dreams, I know). He died. I thought it was all over until I realized that he had a partner, who had a partner, who had a partner, who had a partner...etc. It was the never ending nightmare. Well, when I woke up, I was terrified. I started thinking about how scared I was. It was almost odd. I started thinking about what the difference was between this happening in real life and this happening in a dream. There was something just soo scary about it in my dream.

Thats when I figured it out. In my dream, I didnt have God to pray to. I didnt have God to ask Him to help me. I didnt have the knowledge that if I died, it would be ok because I would be in heaven. It was like for the first time in my life, I got a glimpse of what life without God looks like. See, I grew up a "Christian" (when I truly believed on my own, I dont know.) but basically for my entire life, I have had that feeling of eternal salvation and I have always felt like I could turn to God for help. Im so glad I had this nightmare (even though I basically didnt sleep starting at 5:00am when I first woke up) because I feel like I really got an idea of what life separated from Christ looks like. Its hopeless. Its meaningless. Its sad. Its super scary. I cannot imagine being a situation like that and trying to handle it on my own. I am so glad that I have a savior who was and is and is to come. How blessed are we to know the living God?!

So, would I like to continue to have nightmares? NOPE. BUT, I am so grateful for this one because I feel like I have this new love and just utter gratefulness to the Lord, that I am saved. I love the fact that if I ever am in a situation like this, I wont have the same kind of fear, because I will know that my eternal salvation lies in the Lord. I feel like I finally get the verse in 1 Corinthians 15 "Where oh death is your Victory? Where oh death is your sting?"