We Are Having A Baby!

So glad I finally get to blog about this! I have been dying to talk about it, but we were waiting to tell our parents the good news before blabbing it to the entire world. (This was very hard for me considering my big mouth) We are elated. After our miscarriage only a few months ago I was super bummed and decided that we would try one more time. I (John basically agreed) didnt want to have another miscarriage and then try again. We decided that we would take it as God's sign to adopt. (Its something that we plan on doing anyway) So, I got pregnant even before I had a period...because Im a rebel like that, and because I figure my clients disobey the rules all the time and their babies turn out fine. So, I disobeyed. I can say with certainty that if I had miscarried this baby, that I would have blamed myself completely for it because of the fact that I disobeyed the rules, but by God's grace, that did not happen. The first few weeks were very scary. I found out that my HCG levels werent doubling and that my body did not produce Progesterone. The heartbeat was low at one sonogram, and I panicked. Every time I had the slightest cramp or lack of pregnancy symptom, I automatically assumed I was miscarrying. Talk about an emotional roller coaster. It is by God's awesome grace that this baby is healthy and happy:)...wouldnt you be if I was going to be your mom?...and we are sooo excited to welcome this little one into the world.

I have had 8 sonograms now, which is ridiculous, but its so hard not to have one when I work at a place that provides them! We have so many pictures. Its kind of funny. Its been awesome to see the change in the baby and it constantly reminds me how awesome God is. I dont understand how people can see this stuff and not believe in Him. He is an awesome God.

Which brings me to raising a baby to honor the Lord. How stressful?! I want my child to grow up and serve the Lord and I want to be a good example to my child, but what kind of example am I being when I go buy a pair of shoes for myself that I dont need? What kind of example am I being when I go shopping just because Im bored? What does that teach my kid when there are millions of starving people in the world? I have realized that I am going to have to change my ways. This is a good thing. I have been trying to change them, but Im hoping the desire to raise my child to honor the Lord will spur me on. I think it will help to constantly have someone watching me.

Anyway...all kinds of things to stress over now...not worry over because I have put this baby into God's hands, but stress over because I want to be a godly example to my baby.

Enough for now. Im sure I will be blabbing a lot more now that I have something exciting to blab about!!