Day 21

Well, the weekend wasnt horrible to me. I got on the scale this morning and was ok. I have gone back up, but that is to be expected on a weekend. Today is a new day, but it is going to be a VERY HARD night.

So far today I have had an apple, coffee with cream and non fat cream, 8 chips, salsa, peppers, and string cheese. Calories for today so far are 310.

"Why so little calories?", you might ask. Well, let me tell you why. Tonight we are meeting our homegroup coaches at a delicious Mexican Restaurant called Matt's. They have freaking amazing Queso and I would like to be able to partake in the eating of some of that queso...then I will eat a salad. So, I have to save at least 1200 calories. Ill prob go over, but it will be to the gym with my butt after dinner.

The word failure is in my dictionary. Im a failure. Im very mad at myself and very mad at John....I shall explain. We went to Matt's Mexican place for dinner and I did pretty well. Didnt eat to many chips and we split fajitas. I didnt load them down with all kinds of crap either. I also ordered water.

BUT!!! Then, we come home and its like all willpower leaves me and I decide to eat 12 oreo cookies and 3 chocolate chip cookies and then some chips and salsa (not many but still) What the HECK!!?!?! Thats so ridiculous! We never have this stuff in our house, but we had a bunch of guys over on Saturday and they were supposed to eat this food, but they didnt. So, now its in my house. Im throwing it all away tonight when I get home. Im so mad. I also didnt work out. So I suck. Dont even want to know the calories......